leahmerlexoxo

ewww

adored for your talent
beloved for your strength
admired for your heart
desire for your image
longing for your goddess
prized for your sweetness
cherished for your grace
respected for your good deeds
cared for your affection
worshiped for your delight
held high for your devotion
respected for your friendship
valued for your passion
praised for your loyalty
honored for your honesty

i cant sleep... im so stressed out. im always so tense. i wish i wasnt so worried about my image. im really lonely, i need just that one person in my life, to make me feel sexy make me happy help me out when needed, hug me and kiss me. its so disheartening. haha its kinda pitiful how much i need this. but girls, im sure you have felt how i feel before or is feeling the same way as me right now. it gets pretty lonely. i guess our day will come sooner or later hopfully sooner. but whatever i got to hold tight. and keep my head high. just hopin the this wont get worse...

Some Small Bruises

aching from all these small bruises. shes defeasancless. she will always have excuses. theres so much violence in her home. attacked and abused. shes brusied. girls always talking shit saying shes white trash. yet the dont know a damn thing about her or her life. no money, her days are never sunny. gets beat but shes so sweet. treated like shit from her father. it will repeat, every night they will fight. she says she will be alright. still praying never playing. only in highschool trying to injoy life. live as much as she can. never been cool. she just wishes people can see deep inside her and except her for who she is.  now she smiles looking down as an angel, the day came her funeral was beautiful. and now shes happy. helping children as she once was. shes the beautiful lady in the sky...

Twisted Angel...

Yes i love the super bowl!!! fuck yes!
Thanks everyone for coming to my suprise party and makeing my night wonderful.

awww i love all of you guys!!! all my livejournal buddies! your all so great. muah!!!

Its all so strange. Deep inside i wanna cry. I was so excited! ...but for some odd reason it all makes me so glommy. I mean come on its my Birthday, i should be joyous. Whats this awful feeling? Whats this mood? Maybe its because i have nothing planed. Whats there to do though? No help...It just feels like its going to be another day for everyone else though. does no one care? uhhhh i donno my brains just so disoriented. Haha this is what life does to you i guess. Maybe it will just be another day. i want to have a fucking Party! where????????????? Birthdays arent suppose to be strung out or stressful! whatever just another day. unless there will be help. fuck.



Tara- i cant wait to get our massage.
It will be good for us.

*\0/* Yay Cheer! haha *\0/*
im soo excited! woo hoo

My birthday is in 9 days!!! yay:)))) January 28th!!! im going to be 15 hehe.

Seems like just yesterday
You were a part of me
I used to stand so tall
I used to be so strong
Your arms around me tight
Everything, it felt so right
Unbreakable, like nothin' could go wrong
Now I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hanging on
Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
I told you everything
Opened up and let you in
You made me feel alright
For once in my life
Now all that's left of me
Is what I pretend to be
So together, but so broken up inside
Swallow me then spit me out
For hating you, I blame myself
Seeing you it kills me now
No, I don't cry on the outside
Anymore...

Its weird how the simplest things can be so beautiful...

I say a little prayer for you!!!

My weekness is that i care to much.
Im feeling down.
I just want to be alone.
But im laughing at the truth.
Just go away from me.
Im lost.
Take my time.
How much will money buy?
Unwanted...
Whos to blame for my mistakes?
Everyones to fake.
Everthings to fucked up.
People are empty.
Everyones changing.
You gave me this pain.
Trying to explain this feeling inside.
Why cant i let this go?
Im getting emptyer inside.
What is this thing that i feel i am missing?
Im trippin out.
This makes no difference.

I aint tripping
Im just missing you
You know what Im saying
You know what I mean
Youve kept me hanging from a string
While you make me cry
Ive tried to give you everything
But you just give me lies
Every now and then when Im all alone
Id be wishing that you would call me
Say you want me but you never do
I feel like such a fool
Theres nothing I can do
Im such a fool for you
I cant take it
What am I waiting for?
Im still breaking
I miss you even more
And I cant fake it
The way I could before
I hate you but I love you
I cant stop thinking of you
Its true, Im stuck on you
Now loves a broken record thats been
Skipping in my head
I keep singing yesterday...
Why we have to play these games we play


Hummm...Boys these days:(((

La de da la la fe fa te ta ha blah...



Yes i love the snow:) Yupee!

Maybe my sickness will be gone by this weekend...lets all pray.









welllllllllllllll i love all my friends muah!

Su Beso es un dulce como dulces. En el coche... estaba como una película. Yo me puse la necesidad cualquiera obtener la herida aunque. ¿Qué debo hacer yo? Tantas otras chicas le quieren. ¿Soy el afortunado? ¿Me utilizará usted? Acabo de querer para divertirse. Con fuera algún corazón roto o rompe. ¿Significo su derecho de la preparatoria? Todo quiero es usted. Arrepentido si dolí cualquiera. Las personas siempre dicen que la vida está repleta de elecciones. Adivino que esto es mío. Im que confía el corazón. Esto puede estar equivocado. ¿Seré querido yo? Puesto me falla. El corazón necesita saber. Puedo esperar para obtener luego a usted. El chico que usted me obtuvo haciendo las cosas que yo nunca haría. Puede salirle sólo. Enfermo hace lo que obtuve para hacer para mantenerle a yo mismo.

Psh de Haha lo Jode.

New Years Eve was so much fun
Everyone looked so beautiful
I love my friends so much like words cant even explain


Uhhhhhh i hate being sick
I donno what im going to do
Tomorrows school!!!
Im going to die.
On the positive side...i get to see my friends.

Haha i love being a teen!
Your only in high school once;) so have a hell of a time.


Hope everyone had a great break. and is ready for school. LOVE YOU ALL!

uhhh last night was the worst night in the whole world!!! i cryed like all night. I went to bed at 5 in the morning because i was shaking. I prayed for about an hour...horrible. Why? humm i dont understand.
Those people where sooo nice, i donno what my mom and i wouldnt have done without them

Yet...some people are sooo horrible, they say stuff and they think they are cool and shit but it really hearts people! Just really pisses me off. and hurts me alot!


Whatever though.
I love my friends and family.

hummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm